All Set For The Camp...

I'm... where i was dying to live these days few months back it is no less than a dream that it is more than a month since i gave my boards... rather another 20 days my result will be out, *shit I'm scared* 

It was my dear sister who gave me this idea to go on a camp...and so unexpectedly it is HAPPENINGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

[It's a camp by iDiscovery, known as Youreka. It is a rafting, hiking and trekking camp... It is at a place known as Tons, which is 180km beyond Dehradun. There'll be tents laid by the side of the river Tons, between the greenery of the beautiful mountains... aaah... awesome!! :D]

OoMiiGhosh!! Unbelieveable... this gives me an opportunity to meet new people. I think, I'm a bit of an introvert so it will be an amazing experience to test me... 

Anyway, so Harshita and me are done with the packing, there are some ''to-buy-at-the-end-moment'' stuff yet to be bought, else I'm done with everything else...

SoooooOO excited... :D:D:D:D I have no idea what I'm going to do after I'm back from the mostttt fab. vacation aka camp, but I promise you there will be TOnnNS of posts here; to expalin it all... Going to click MannYY pictures, memorise each and everyday I'm going to spend there for, it is going to the trip of my life (hopefully ;) )... I'm glad Harshita is going to be there, she's gonna help have ''more'' fun... and for all those who teased me that I may bump into a *cute* guy, i simply wish it happens, lol... you never know... :-P 

Ps. I leave on the 12 morning, gotta catch a train from New Delhi Railway station at like 6... and will be back on the 19 night, around 11-ish..

Pps. Wishing all the mothers a very Happy Mother's Day!! :)

Cedar and Cheer!

On the 1st May, I started with my new diary, aka Cheer... My last Cheer looked somewhat like this... It had a hideous cover page so I had covered it with a white chart paper... stuck one of my favourite pictures, of mine only... lol... And made it look ''good'' so that it is worth writing in! 

So above my picture, it reads ''zealousme'' , below it reads ''princess'' and then i have written my name all over the place... it isnt that visible, however i had sketched ''A'' on the left corner of the diary... it is a 400 pages journal... well my next task is to count the number of diaries I have written till now...

And you can make out the difference between a guitar and the diary.. so the guitar of course, is *Cedar*... then there is the back side of the journal, the last page of Cheer...and one of the middle pages of my journal... ta-da and thats it! :)

Chaos of being in school...

31st August 2008, was pondering over the fact of how time just passes by...

today i went to get my picture clicked, passport size, for my form of class 10. Due for tomorrow, but apparently I'll give it on Tuesday! Cute picture, I'm smiling in it. When i was in class 8, when i was soo chilled out that 10 is so far, but Now, I'm going through what i never thought of! i don't really remember my first day in high school, except! you know sun shining damn hard,my skirt HIGH waist and the class 6 is standing up of the Basket Ball court, wandering about, looking at those strangers -''SENIORS'', we were looking forward to a new start, dunno what's gonna happen and THEN, all of a sudden we are missing the junior school!!! We don't wanna live here! And as soon as time (which i hate) passes --> we have forgotten all, we live with faded memories, we are all adjusted to our new home. And as the clock is ticking, our skirts come down to low waist, hairstyle, fashion, high socks to a level that of the ankle and wear all abusing language, that, i thought didn't even exist! Class 10 then was a dream or More Than That!!! Aaki as bestie, Gen.X., being desperado, teachers, first crush-out of the world! Now 2 years!!! I'll make then the BEST EVER!!! The unexpected will do its best and i'll take it! There's so much in life and I'm sooooooo WAITING!!!! 

This week was the toughest, the hardest and not THAT terrible week of my summer, lol...

From my side i got all the tension settled with aaki-shefu-viku. I mean viku still has some problem however we 8 are all looking forward for that perfect night stay where hopefully we wont lose our tempers and not let our ego talk. I mean right now the only thing is the ''ego-clashing'' amongst us. We 8 are sooo different from each other that it amazes me when i try to answer the question that Sakshi had asked me ''how did you EIGHT become FRIENDS??"

Things with Harshi and Samster have, on the other side, got a lil worse...

When I had called Viku, I knew i was at fault, i heard all that she had to say... she was rude and harsh however i deserved it. i think with all the patience on this earth i must have listened to viku. but i couldn't stop crying!! the very thought that Gen.x. will be no more was an utter shock for me. I mean crying is something else. It was like ''wild''crying. This was the second time with in 14 days, i felt so HELPLESS that i thought all efforts i made were soo invisible. useless. My dad, was shocked at my status. he came and hugged me. all i could do was hug him back, so tightly and cry my heart out, wildly... shoot mann...A sister like sakshi is soo very hard to find.. trust me, had she not been there things b/w viku n me must have been even more entangled by now!! That very sense of helpless-ness was scaring and i don't want to experience it any more... That very night aaki had called me, we sorted things amongst us. 

The next day when she called, all she could go was ''blah-blah-blah-blah-blah-blah'' it was like she was speaking at hundred miles an hour speed, without any break. that is, she gave me NO chance to explain anything. all she could do was; go on n on n on n on!!! whoa, all i did was out of anger and also my EGO, kept the phone SO HARD.now, when she called back, sisi did the talking.

Now i'll take my parent's advice, now i made my effort, rest is all up to the others... even my patience has exhausted, to the core...and now my ego has become vulnerable, lol...I will stay quiet and give others the space and time...

So anyway, i was glad to have talked to viku and shefu already,so  that when we met for sadhika's birthday, it seemed as though nothing had happened. it was awesome. I even travelled in metro all by myself... yeah me! ;)

And on Tuesday, Sakshi, Sayan( her boyfriend), Saloni (my friend) and me had gone shopping.

I had to shop for the camp, which i didn't... bought these three amazingly hott tops apparently which i cant wear to camp, and yeah a pair of shoes WHICH is for camp only and a bit of accessories... It was funn.. had a wonderful day... Sayan bhaiya seemed tired of carrying the shopping bags, lol!

on Monday, in the evening, i had gone for a Dosa party at neha's place... after having dosas, idli, and desert (i don't know what it is called) we were 5 girls, went into the colony. The weather was ideally romantic, and we enjoyed it. There was a lil of dust-storm. We went to this big park, where there are swings... Mann, swings are my another BIG WEAKNESS, i die for them. it's like that icing on the cake, while swinging under such a beautiful weather... we were shouting, hooting and made a mayhem in that park, lol... due to such rainy weather many people had left, so it wasn't that abashing...

Else the very season of phalse is here , the month of May... it's an Indian fruit. appear as tiny berries... it is called phalse in delhi, however have no idea what it is regarded as, in the other states... :)

Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power.

  - Blaine Lee, "The Power Principle"

“every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us"
No matter how unreasonable others may seem, I am responsible for not reacting negatively. Regardless of what is happening around me I will always have the prerogative, and the responsibility, of choosing what happens within me. I am the creator of my own reality.
When I [review my day], I know that I must stop judging others. If I judge others, I am probably judging myself. Whoever is upsetting me most is my best teacher. I have much to learn from him or her, and in my hearts, I should thank that person.

  - Bill Wilson, "Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 88"

Gen.X. cannot break!!!

Gen.X. is the name of the group of 8 besties. Harshi, Samaster, Aaki, Shefu, Viku, Gaurs, Deeksh n Me. This is gen.x. for past 5 years... The group everybody envies, thinks that how come we all manage to stay together... that NOTHING can break us... Just because last week, harshi n me had a night stay at Samster's place, just because of this, SHefu n Viku have decided that they don't wanna be part of Gen.x. anymore. This is ridiculous. Terrible.Horrible.Unbearable. This for the first time that we've had such bizarre fight.

Viku has said so much harsh n awful things to the 3 of us--culprits, plus have been very insensitive to all our pleadings. Samster and i believe that just because of such mere lil thing viku and shefu cant decide to just walk away , there is MUCH more to it, which is yet to be disclosed. Samster is tired of all the effort, and now harshi and me are trying n reaching Shefu, just that she needs to answer our calls!!! ... moreover i can never let this happen. NEVER. We all have to stay together... Forever. 

April gone, May begins...

A month has passed since i gave my boards... feels good yet unbelievable. I still sit in my drawing room and think about those days when everyone else was doing something they liked and i would be sitting on that particular couch with a table and studying, speacially, mugging up social. I would normally sit in there only for preparing for Social... i really don't know how i feel when i try to picture myself, when i would try recalling my class 10 days, but it really fascinated me that how time just passes...

how the 'expected' never happens. I had this huge list of things that i wanted to do but something or the other came up, and nothing happened eventually. nothing of the 'expected' happened. I have made this mistake a lot of times... but as they say 'old habits, die hard'. Such as, i had planned to go to Bombay as soon as my boards get over, to my brothers, meet my nephew n all, but the youreka camp came in between. It is pretty expensive, i had to chose amongst the two. Ka-ching, I'm going for this, water-rafting, trekking camp on the 12th (i'mm soooooooooooooo exciteddd :D:D:D) in Tons, that is, 180 km beyond Dehradun, in Uttranchal. 

Last week on Sunday, harshita n me at somya's place, had amazing night stay. Actually we two had gone to collect ruck-sack from somya, for the camp. Only Harshita n Me are going fro the camp... :) It was an amazing night stay. Finally, it felt nice to be back being so good friends with harshi and samster... we had funn. didnt sleep. got chased by DOGS at 4:30 in the morning, saving our lives... lol

The rest of the week was pretty good...i read ''the queen of babble'' by Meg Cabot. Cheered for my angels, the devils, The Delhi Daredevils, baby... i'm sure there're going to win this year...

I said goodbye to Sherlyn, she's gone to Kolkata to her Aunt's place, all by herself..and then she'll go to Ranchi. Finally she's out of her home, this place, I'm freaking happy for her and that is why i gifted her a diary for her holidays!! :D and she loved it!!

She'll be back in June,i think...

And, umm... 

now today the May started, i went for walk in the morning with my parents (trust me, it can embarrassing), and then for yoga at Maa's school... SO i was pretty worked up in the morning only... and i look forward for the same morning schedule until the 12th arrives... ka-ching, m soo excited for the camp!! :D