More than anything i feel guilty... i didnt blog, niether did i write in my Cheer...
this month, was the most unexpected one... so much happened that i was so distracted to do anything...
tutions, friends, guitar, my laziness -ofcourse!... a lil more... At one point i forgot that i had other commitments thanks to a new one that i made... but it all ended. I'm *hopefully* back to normal...
And the best is, that now, I'm having a panic-attack... A list of last time chores are running through my mind, again and again AND AGAIN!
freak, tomorrow my school starts... I'll be in the second most SENIOR CLASS... and more than being excited i'm wishing that i could get just ONE more day...
i dont regret anything about this summer... but i feel very disappointed in me for not being able to achieve two GOALS that i had set for myself for these 3 months... i could'nt... i wish i could become a lil more headstrong like my mother...

after this i will definately write my journal... i have to buy books of 3 other subjects tomorrow from school. in the evening i have to go and buy my NEW bag! :D
at one point i'm veryyyyyyy excited to meet everyone... it will be so much of fun... new teachers, new class mates, first thing i wanna do is to find out about the upcoming co-curricular activities, it is my last year to participate... eepp!! Find out about the posts for which an 11grader can apply to get a BATCH!

This summer... as i would walk tomorrow out of my home... i feel more responsible. this summer i'd help my mother so much, for circumstances were such. i feel more confident about myself. i'm sure of what i'm doing. as this summer ends i realise that no one can be as lazy as i'm...
as this summer concludes i feel that trust is a very weak string, once you over-stretch it, it will break. it reminds me of a verse by the great poet Kabir, who said once the trust is broken, no matter how much to try, it can never be same again... i wish it doesnt happen with me.
as i will enter class 11 tomorrow, i fear the new studies. i'm unsure of what i'm gonna do after 12th, but i'm very satisfied by taking up commerce WITH maths (except that part, where i wont get to see my friends in the class...)AS i would study from tomorrow in the class room of 11th, i would recall everything that i did in 10th, for i still do the same now... no doubt that when i did ask my seniors about class 10th, they were so true about the fact that yes, class 10 was a piece of cake.. it requires hard work and complete dedication but i havent come across such easy syllabus ever, in my life! :)
i feel very proud of myself because i think i have successfully completed a level of... *
i could feel the very importance of class 10, the pressure on me when i was asked what subject i want to take... the importance being that, that only based on these subjects i'm opening and closing opportunities for various professions for myself... out of which i have to choose one.. that will determine my fortune... well that will be the finale of this new level that i have just started... it is way ahead in future...

and thats it... this summer i even got my frist cell phone!! yeahh.. that, btw, was the besttt part...
then last week i WENT TO THE GREAT ''HARD ROCK CAFE'' BABYYyyy!! its like the bestttttttt place for music freaks... so cool...harshita and me had gone.. it just recently opened up in delhi.. or else it is very famous all over the world...

my belly dancing is going greattt... i was suppose to have a show, but then i most probably will be having it on the 17th... and anyway, the GREAT NEWS WAS THAT I GOT PROMOTED ON TO THE NEXTTTTTTT LEVEL...I WAS SOOOoo happy! :D JUST LEARNT CHOREOGRAPHY ON THIS SONG FROM THE BOLLLYWOOD MOVIE *DELHI 6* ''genda fool''.. crazie, rite! :P

apart, there wasnt anything special that i'm missing on to or i dont think there is anything else that extra ordinary that i would like to put it down here...
i had the same old not so boring and exciting life :-P ... over the time, saloni and me became like besties... sholay recently turned 16... i'm soooooooooooo excited for mine... :)

ps. this reminds me, i still have to buy a gift for my girlfriend, hehe, sherlyn, that is! (suggestions are welcomed)

pps: today the 7th of july, is my dear sister's boyfriend's Sayantan's BIRTHDAY!!! so HAPPY BIRTHDAYYyyyyyyyyyyyy to him!! :D

Day IV

so i woke up to find that the weather had settled down, it was cold though...

in the choti hazari that morning we were asked to wear shoes and were taken to a field about 700-800 metres away... trekking between the wilderness... there we played again games based on co-ordination and team work... since,the next day we were to leave for hiking-trekking we were taught how to pitch a tent...it was 'A' type of tent, its various parts- pegs, ridge pole, etc

that day was the last day of rafting... we all excited... today our rafting stretch was of 10km... our cattle trucks took us took a farther point. that only, a new instructor was assigned to only our group.. he was an american, born and brought up in California, name- Louise. he told us about, his dream to visit Chile and now he planned to go back home for sometime... he even gave a brief about his travelling experience... on that day's rafting expedition we went on grade3 rapids, which were fun... 

on our way back from Aquaterra rafting camp side, the truck in which the killer rafter group was going had tire-punctured... hahaha... so in the mini cow truck in which we todoos were going, the other 18 were stuffed...it was exhausting... the way wasnt that smooth, so many of us ended up having tiny injuries...

that afternoon we didnt go anywhere for any sort of minor activity, i took a head wash. there was apipe near the loo and bathing tents from which water flowed 24*7, so thanks to that we all would take a head wash... the whole place would turn into a fish market.. some shouting '' can you please help, me?", some ''oye, pass me the shampoo!!''

after having squash and lunch we went to the beach... it's like a pilgrimage for us... we laughed and talked and clicked pictures... after spending like 2hrs... everyone was asked to gather in the common place.

there on the notice board, a map was made which was actually a brief about the trekking we were going to embark in the next three days. the whole journey was of 24km. 1st day we had to trek UP HILL 4 km, 2nd day 8km to our main destination, final destination, lol, Rangali Top 7,5oo metres above sea level. on the 3rd day, simply trek DOWN HILL 12 km... 

following that we were given a list of food items and the maximum number we were allowed to carry... the camp was alloting us with a rucksack, a raincoat, sleeping bag, a bowl and a spoon... the instructors were going for the heck of it... we only had to carry the utensils, our clothes, the food as well as the tent... so we had to think judicially of how many tents we require and ofcourse how much food... there was a big, big, bigg debate over food...finally, we were carrying biscuits, cheese spread, bread, sausages aka halaal, matar paneer -ready to make packets, tomato puree, onions, britannia chocolate cakes,rice, pulses, utensils, stoves, garbage bag and much-much more... 

that evening the solo time didnt feel like one... for we had spent most of the day there only, so no body wanted to sit by themselves... everyone talking and laughing... kuber sir scolded me and literally ordered me to go and sit somewhere faarrrrrrrrr... so i went and sat next to water on the rock... i had my head in my lap... it was soo soothing, peaceful that i even fell asleep for 5-6 minutes... that eve i realised it was the 15th, my Dadu's birthday (Grandfather's), i'd miss him... but didnt get too carried away, i had no intentions on getting too emotional.

that night we again had another session of lame horror story... 

later on, one guy, who seemed like an instructor to us came upto us and sat... it was harshita, anupam, mayank and me at that time! he was barefoot had a maala in his neck... he had that complete priest look... on asking him he in his low peaceful voice, was like, '' i'm a wanderer... i was just passing by the place and they (the campus people) offered me shelter , food and water... so i'm here tonight...'' i dunno about others but he freaked me out... then he told us that he even read faces... when i asked him to read mine...

priest: with whom do you stay the most, your mother or father?

me:equally both

priest: umm... you're... you're slow in your actions... you do your work very steadily however your mind's very fast... you're actions are like your mother however your thinking is just like your father's....

me: *i had the shocking look on my face... you know where your mouth's open and you're surprised...* okay

I seriously couldn't believe him... his each word was true... seriously... oohh god... later on we came to know that he was one of the instructors there however he reads people faces and palms...

that night at born fire, this guy Bharat, he played the guitar and sang beautiful songs... that made my sleep good as i drowned into the peaceful night...

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today, woke up at 6.30 with saloni's call and ta-da did go for aerobics... yeah, it's owkay, nothing of that great sort... just going for i would have an early starting to my day by working out a lil and not by lazying around... plus, i wanna lose my belly fat, hehe! :P

following that, i started with my second month of belly dance class... and as i have always said, i never seem to get enough of it, it always makes me impatient to learn more... the only thing that makes me feel, ''yeah, i'm following my dream'', which is completely outrageous! :))

the whole day i'd lazy around.. at night, i had pizza.. was on date with da'ads, my grandmaa... i sat with her, we had pizza and coke and i told her about the camp... yeah fun... actually sis and maa had gone for a wedding reception and someone had to be with da'ads so i stayed back... 

after midnight, dad came back home... i was soo relieved to see him, somehow... i love my daddy... lol... so we all sat together, i was veryy sleepy, so i heard all the story of dad's journey with my eyes closed and already half asleep... but i know most of it... he had a great time... bua was very very veryyy surprised to seem him, ta-da mission accomplished... and what else do you need...

Ps. just a random question, how will you know that the other person is falling for you? (dont be surprised by my question, please...) ;)

Day III

now that i had sneaked into the tent no.11, i had to be concious that before any instructor opens up the tent to wake us up the next morning he/she should'nt catch me red handed... but you know, i had an amazing luck... amazing luck probably limited to that day only... somehow i woke up on my own to find that it was bright outside... i myself went outside... brushed my teeth. so when i was walking back from the loo area i found it was then the instructors started waking up everyone... phew!!! 

that morning, we were asked to wear shoes and come for the choti hazari... we went to this lawn area where there was bon fire the previous night... as i said the instructors over there were in love with shapes, we were asked to make a circle... we did some warm up excersices... that morning i found that i'm badly struck with cold and cough... anyway, after that we had these relay games, todoos vs. the rafters! it as like a player from each team had to run to a point 50metres away, inflate a balloon and then burst it with hus/her ass. once done, run back to your team and tag the next person... the second game was also relay where you had to pair up with a person from your team only, inflate a balloon, the pair had to balance the balloon between their back and reach the point same as before and then run back to your team and tag the next pair... hahaha! both the times the todoos won, you see, we are good at todo-fying stones and balloons... (lame joke ;) )

further we changed into our shorts and tees and today was the second day for Rafting... we reached the Aquaterra site pretty early so our guides made us play few games... they were fun... for rafting this time the guide didnt do the paddling, everything was dependent on us! and this time i sat on the front area, last time i was in the middle... as usual we stopped at a place took take a dip into the river, rather we stopped twice to swim in the water... plus this time the speed of water was faster and also the level of water had also increased for it was hotter and hence much of the glacier must have melted... 

back at the camp, we had squash, which i truly loved... we changed into our dry clothes... at dinner area where we usually sat, was the main place to mix up with people... thanks to diya and shardooli we got introduced to many other girls.. there was mithali, saniya, yaashna,diksha, upasana, avarna, etc... diya was amongst the prettiest girls over there...she was my height, she was thin, probably zero size had these beautiful smile and eyes... the perfect way to describe is ''doll'',she's from Chicago, US and else laughed silently, lol... shardoli her BFF is a lil healthy she also has an accent like diya, however she's lived in mexico, brussles and belgium.. both from sanskriti school, they were the only ones from class11... apart all these girls were like sooo tall and almost all of them zero size, fair and beautiful and even though they were like younger to me, they looked sooo mature, as though they were in 12 or even older!

that afternoon after having bit of conversations here and there and having lunch, naveen sir shouted''tadooos, guys, come here''.... we were confronted with a challenge for which we were given a map... there were 'X' marked at 3 places which meant that we had to ask the instructor for an activity assigned for that particular destination. kartikey, took charge for the map. he is such an ass, he would boss us around and i never even got to have one look at the map!! whenever i udes to ask him for it, he would so nicely ignore me.. as though i was speaking to a rock!! anyway as we started on the expedetion, we first came across a water point, which was a handpump.. there we all drank water... after covering like 100 metres from there, it was time for our first activity...

naveen sir paired us up with people whom we didnt know at all... harshi was paired up with ashray and i was with shardooli, even though i knew her, since she was my tent mate... eventually, what was the activity?.. one from each pair was blind folded, the one who could see had to lead the other one without touching the blind one... so shardooli was blind folded... the way was pretty tricky, full of rocks, mud puddles, too steep and turns as well... so i would have to instruct shardooli to take 5 steps here and there, jump to your right, left or forward.. most of the times i kept on telling her to keep right, and simply walk straight... next when i was blind folded, it was very difficult for me to understand her... she always asked me to kept left... eventually, i asked her to keep blabbering for i would follow her voice... and ta-da it actually worked!! yeah, fun!! 

our next destination was a mandir... very famous one in the small village of Anori... there no leather stuff was allowed... we were aksed to take off our socks and shoes... futher were divided into teams of 6.. mine included govind, rachit, rishika, sanya and mithali... we were given a paper and a marker and were assigned to collect as many information of the temple as possible in 20 minutes... luckily govind got hang of a person who was a local, lived there only and told us about every possible thing about the temple as well as the neighbourhood... the temple was about 450years old, built by lord Bheem. it's temple of Goddess Sudipta...there was even two large rocks, probably weighing around 100 kgs and it is said that Lord Bheem used to play with them.. many guys were able to pick up those rocks.. it is also said if you pick up that rock and are able to throw it and also make a wish, it tends to come true... there was also a tiny kaali maa ka mandir, near which we were standing, that was our group and listening to that guy who was giving all the info that suddenly a lady, must be in her 40s, starts wild dancing, throwing the prashad all over the place, moving her head which made her hair go here and there just like a witch's... she ran towards us... i got soo freaking scared that i ran... and then came to know she was not running towards us but the temple of kaali maa... a guy, sort of priest came, took hold of her, placed his palm on her temples and chanting something which calmed that old lady... on asking we came to know that it happens everyday but to different people for kaali maa decents herself into one of her true believers...

moving on, the instructors were like they would quiz us on the info that we had collected... we had 4 pages filled with soo much about the place, just like an enclyopedia... we trekked back the same way only that we stopped at a bridge... it was actually shivering.. it was an ancient one.. we crossed that and then there was a wall like pavement... we all sat there..and at that venue we were quized... and ka-ching, our team won... wasnt that obvious, already!! hehehe!

two activites : check, one to go... as we moved on from that place, about 200 metres ahead, it was a grass covered area, where the groups of six were divided into 3... it was mithali rachit and me this time... out of the three one had to be blind folded, one had to be the intrepretor of the signs the third one gave who could not speak to the blind folded one in order to collect the missing pieces of the hoopla... ghosh that was fun... following that we played a game known as ''big fish-small fish''.. while coming back, a goat followed us... followed us till we reached the camp... she was named ''bak-bak''

as soon as we reached the camp, we were pretty tired... however it was the solo time when we reached...so we took our cool book and and i took my fav place near the river... the solo time, was pure bliss... even though i have it at home also but a solo time on beach, is like the icing on cake... ummm.. lol

that evening, after it as almost dark, torches were out... all 36 of us were scttered.. we had soup... talked... sat on the stools, it was anupam, mayank, harshi and me, later joined by shagun... we'd talk about movies, life back home... and how we were not that homesick, now, atleast... hehe... probably after an hour or so, it started drizziling... the weather got worse... biting cold, freezing wind... awful stormm... we were wearing our pullovers already but now, we were holding our tents, so that they dont fly... lol... well another experience in itself... before dinner was served, we all 36 were in the common place sitting. a guy was playing the mini keyboard, few playing the mini congos and another a guitar... later on, the series of ghost stories started. Tara sir, took the initiative... so the 2-3 source of lights we had was switched off and we made a circle around him... the ghost story apparantly wasnt that scary... see, if a person like me didnt get scare, so you can imagine that at the end of it, the ghost story was not even a bit horror, rather lame... 

i was so tired that i had no strenght to even open my eyes that night thus i had sound sleep.. shagun was a great help that night, for she was aware of my fear so she gave me her torch before she slept... the storm continued for a while at night... but the funniest part was, in the middle of nowhere, bak-bak started with her  ''mei-mei-mei'' at night... and started pulling shardooli's blanket.. lol... it was soo funnyy.... i couldnt stop laughing... 

and then, i eventually felt groggy and laughing-laughing, i went back to sleep...

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past 3 days, i'm feeling pretty awkward...probably now that i'm back home, i'm mountain-sick... everyone said that '' we didnt realise how just time flew''... but somehow i disagreed with them... i felt each and everyday... i felt each moment i'd spent there, absorb it in me so hard, that it might because of that now, i feel weird being back home...but good at the same time as well :)

today in the morning i had gone for aerobics with saloni and landed up spending the whole day with her... it was soo much of fun... in the afternoon weather became so awesome for it drizzeled. so saloni called me up and was like ''lets go somewhere...'' we met again.. and then, first we went to meet, Pradeep sir, my tution sir... he's preparing for CA now, so he's completely turned his look to that of devdas... long hair, seemes like he havent shaved for like a month and that look on his 6 feet frame made sir look even taller... i felt totally, completely nostalgic when i went to the tution centre.. i was missing sitting in the class, sleeping-yawning, when sir taught boring subjects and what not, well, i'll write another post on my tution..

tomorow starts my 2nd month if belly dancing. 

i have a guitar class on 25th and i havent practiced at all, will do that probably tomorrow!!

else, my dad called to ask me what i wanted from US... apparantly i sent bua a big email, flaterring her and all and in the end asked her to tell dad to get me the most beautiful diary in the earth for my *svt16*

you vella, me velli : chalo lets celebrate *vella-panti*

L-O-L!!! Sis n me were walking back home from the market when i asked her ''so! how was your date today?" she had gone out with Sayan(her boyfriend) like any other day, but i never miss on asking her about how was it... So sisi was like ''he calls me up at night and sweetly tells me, that tomorrow I'm taking a half-day from office, so we decided on meeting up...anyway!!"... and it was then I supplied '' you vella, me velli : chalo let's celebrate vella-panti''... 

For all-those who don't know what a 'vella' is, vella is a Hindi word meaning - if someone is sitting idle, has nothing to do or whose into useless stuff...

So, that implies that I'm *vella-personified* for, for past 24 days i had nothing 'meaningful' to do! And so i met up with friend- school sweethearts, Sherlyn, and the tution peeps, we would go to place to place doing vella-panti, only!

Ta-da!

PS. how vella of me to write such a vella post... :)

PPS. tomorrow's my second belly dance class.

        plan to meet up at Samster's(aka Somya's) place for a night stay on                              Sunday...hopefully should workout!!

Bye-Bye Bua, Belly Dance... n Much More...

When she used to live is States, her every visit to India used to be special. Everyone excited at home, so many preparations and especially when me and cousins being kids used to be excited about the presents she would get for us! 5 years back, Bua was transferred to Bangalore, India.  Thanks to her I got to sit on an aeroplane for the first time and that was Me and my Grandma who went to Bangalore in 2004. Their Bangalore house was a palace, huge so many rooms and their roof was the best... I remember everything from my trip...I still miss the friends I'd made there and Bua's neighbour who was in her 70s however befriended me and we did swimming together... After two years, Bua shifted to Chennai, Tamil Nadu. Thanks to her I got the confidence to travel alone. The Chennai House was beautiful too, again another palace... After almost spending 2 years in Chennai Bua came to Gurgaon that is like NCR, that is like being next door, neighbour!!! Furthermore it became a daily affair to meet bua, as though she had been living with us forever. Nightstays at Bua's place were a luxury, comfortable and the most outrageous experiences. Even though we would do nothing, just relax but the atmosphere around and especially living in one of the most beautiful houses on this earth, what better you want...I would miss playing carom or cards or crossword with bua, watching pictures, and working on her Imac... well I sound selfish but the kind of experiences I'd have with bua, hanging out with her were really fun...and I'll miss that... Last night Bua and Uncle left for Boston. I cried, I felt bad... I was wishing that somehow we could spend more  family time :)

It was a surprise and seemed completely impossible that Bua would one day actually be next door...!! awesome fun.. Bua I'll miss you, hope you have great time in US, and hope I'll come to visit you soon!! :D

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Today was my first belly dance class , at the Banjara School of Belly Dance. I went half hearted for the class because I feared that it might turn out to be lame like all the earlier classes I had gone to at various other dance institutions!! However I came very happy, excited and with more desperation to learn Belly Dancing... my instructor's name's Meher. She showed us few moves which were so fantastic which assured me that Yes! she is professional... There were like 15 students, rather I should call ladies, because I was the youngest amongst them. The one elder to me was in 1st year college. Meher told me that I'm picking up pretty fast, that made me more confident about what I was doing... Plus we even started with the choreography. The performance is in September and the theme is ''Belly-wood'' that is belly dancing with the touch of bollywood. So our batch is learning the moves on Kajrare. Exciting!! And now it makes me impatient for the nest class!!  Yeahpie!!!!

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In the evening today, we're going to the 50th birthday party of one the friends of my parents...Hopefully I'm gonna wear a dress!

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I haven't found a Guitar instructor as yet. This does not make me feel terrible or sad but disappointed that it extends the number of days I'll be practicing on my own without any supervision telling me whether I'm doing it correctly or not! It's OK, though!

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Indian Premier League is starting today... but no match of Delhi Dare-devil, so I don't think I'll be watching it!! :)

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and that's it... I don't think there's much to do except clean many of my shelves... that's a headache... I started with a new book that My sister issued from the library ''Stick or Twist'' by Eleanor Moran. Moreover, I simply skipped the first three parts of Twilight and simply read the 4th part for I knew the most of the story... from my personal experience don't read it, it sucks, however it is better than a sleeping tablet :P and that's it! Tomorrow's Sunday and hope it is as great as the last one!! :)