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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

This week was the toughest, the hardest and not THAT terrible week of my summer, lol...
From my side i got all the tension settled with aaki-shefu-viku. I mean viku still has some problem however we 8 are all looking forward for that perfect night stay where hopefully we wont lose our tempers and not let our ego talk. I mean right now the only thing is the ''ego-clashing'' amongst us. We 8 are sooo different from each other that it amazes me when i try to answer the question that Sakshi had asked me ''how did you EIGHT become FRIENDS??"

Things with Harshi and Samster have, on the other side, got a lil worse...

When I had called Viku, I knew i was at fault, i heard all that she had to say... she was rude and harsh however i deserved it. i think with all the patience on this earth i must have listened to viku. but i couldn't stop crying!! the very thought that Gen.x. will be no more was an utter shock for me. I mean crying is something else. It was like ''wild''crying. This was the second time with in 14 days, i felt so HELPLESS that i thought all efforts i made were soo invisible. useless. My dad, was shocked at my status. he came and hugged me. all i could do was hug him back, so tightly and cry my heart out, wildly... shoot mann...A sister like sakshi is soo very hard to find.. trust me, had she not been there things b/w viku n me must have been even more entangled by now!! That very sense of helpless-ness was scaring and i don't want to experience it any more... That very night aaki had called me, we sorted things amongst us. 
The next day when she called, all she could go was ''blah-blah-blah-blah-blah-blah'' it was like she was speaking at hundred miles an hour speed, without any break. that is, she gave me NO chance to explain anything. all she could do was; go on n on n on n on!!! whoa, all i did was out of anger and also my EGO, kept the phone SO HARD.now, when she called back, sisi did the talking.
Now i'll take my parent's advice, now i made my effort, rest is all up to the others... even my patience has exhausted, to the core...and now my ego has become vulnerable, lol...I will stay quiet and give others the space and time...

So anyway, i was glad to have talked to viku and shefu already,so  that when we met for sadhika's birthday, it seemed as though nothing had happened. it was awesome. I even travelled in metro all by myself... yeah me! ;)

And on Tuesday, Sakshi, Sayan( her boyfriend), Saloni (my friend) and me had gone shopping.
I had to shop for the camp, which i didn't... bought these three amazingly hott tops apparently which i cant wear to camp, and yeah a pair of shoes WHICH is for camp only and a bit of accessories... It was funn.. had a wonderful day... Sayan bhaiya seemed tired of carrying the shopping bags, lol!

on Monday, in the evening, i had gone for a Dosa party at neha's place... after having dosas, idli, and desert (i don't know what it is called) we were 5 girls, went into the colony. The weather was ideally romantic, and we enjoyed it. There was a lil of dust-storm. We went to this big park, where there are swings... Mann, swings are my another BIG WEAKNESS, i die for them. it's like that icing on the cake, while swinging under such a beautiful weather... we were shouting, hooting and made a mayhem in that park, lol... due to such rainy weather many people had left, so it wasn't that abashing...

Else the very season of phalse is here , the month of May... it's an Indian fruit. appear as tiny berries... it is called phalse in delhi, however have no idea what it is regarded as, in the other states... :)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power.

  - Blaine Lee, "The Power Principle"

“every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us"
No matter how unreasonable others may seem, I am responsible for not reacting negatively. Regardless of what is happening around me I will always have the prerogative, and the responsibility, of choosing what happens within me. I am the creator of my own reality.
When I [review my day], I know that I must stop judging others. If I judge others, I am probably judging myself. Whoever is upsetting me most is my best teacher. I have much to learn from him or her, and in my hearts, I should thank that person.


  - Bill Wilson, "Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 88"