these things shouldnt happen!-AT ALL!!!!

i'm still upset... things have changed, ofcourse, they have, and they will if you write after yearss... but things have changed terribly... they are awful and they make me very upset.

there is one lil thing that happened about, well in June, and it is still haunting me... thats like on my mind- For Ever! well, no good hiding it... right, i'm trying to get over a guy!!

hahaha!

no more comments!

class XI... no it does not feel like 'a dream come true'... because dreams are beautiful... you enjoy them... and had it been a dream i wouldnt have been so occupied with the most stupid things, i wouldnt have left my guitar, dropped dancing for more than a month, stopped writing, stopped being me!!!

niether it is a nightmare! because... arrghh!!! nightmares are worse than this!!!!!!

not that i hate XI or something like that, i'm enjoying it. Commerce is fun... better than science and i enjoy my foreign subjects... studying has never been troublesome for me!

now what is happening is annoying!!

my friends... i think they take me for granted! wtf... fortunately i'm a bit out of the fights, the ego clashes and the tiffs!! i have so much to do... my svt 16... dude, less than 2monthss!!! it is suppose to be bigg!!! and there is this ''groupism'' going on school... and its probably me only whose so hyped about it... because i can see it happening infront of me! we the so called 8, ha! breaking... what can be worse than that... why cant they apply a bit of their minds, why so much attitude...why sooo much ego, sooo many grudges!! and i can feel it happening!! and unfortunately i cant do anything about it... because if i say anything, ha! no body LISTENSS!! I'M LIKE AN INAUDIBLE BLABBER MOUTH TO THEM!! W.T.F.

i'm still going strong!

and i will!

God, just support me!

More than anything i feel guilty... i didnt blog, niether did i write in my Cheer...
this month, was the most unexpected one... so much happened that i was so distracted to do anything...
tutions, friends, guitar, my laziness -ofcourse!... a lil more... At one point i forgot that i had other commitments thanks to a new one that i made... but it all ended. I'm *hopefully* back to normal...
And the best is, that now, I'm having a panic-attack... A list of last time chores are running through my mind, again and again AND AGAIN!
freak, tomorrow my school starts... I'll be in the second most SENIOR CLASS... and more than being excited i'm wishing that i could get just ONE more day...
i dont regret anything about this summer... but i feel very disappointed in me for not being able to achieve two GOALS that i had set for myself for these 3 months... i could'nt... i wish i could become a lil more headstrong like my mother...

after this i will definately write my journal... i have to buy books of 3 other subjects tomorrow from school. in the evening i have to go and buy my NEW bag! :D
at one point i'm veryyyyyyy excited to meet everyone... it will be so much of fun... new teachers, new class mates, first thing i wanna do is to find out about the upcoming co-curricular activities, it is my last year to participate... eepp!! Find out about the posts for which an 11grader can apply to get a BATCH!

This summer... as i would walk tomorrow out of my home... i feel more responsible. this summer i'd help my mother so much, for circumstances were such. i feel more confident about myself. i'm sure of what i'm doing. as this summer ends i realise that no one can be as lazy as i'm...
as this summer concludes i feel that trust is a very weak string, once you over-stretch it, it will break. it reminds me of a verse by the great poet Kabir, who said once the trust is broken, no matter how much to try, it can never be same again... i wish it doesnt happen with me.
as i will enter class 11 tomorrow, i fear the new studies. i'm unsure of what i'm gonna do after 12th, but i'm very satisfied by taking up commerce WITH maths (except that part, where i wont get to see my friends in the class...)AS i would study from tomorrow in the class room of 11th, i would recall everything that i did in 10th, for i still do the same now... no doubt that when i did ask my seniors about class 10th, they were so true about the fact that yes, class 10 was a piece of cake.. it requires hard work and complete dedication but i havent come across such easy syllabus ever, in my life! :)
i feel very proud of myself because i think i have successfully completed a level of... *
i could feel the very importance of class 10, the pressure on me when i was asked what subject i want to take... the importance being that, that only based on these subjects i'm opening and closing opportunities for various professions for myself... out of which i have to choose one.. that will determine my fortune... well that will be the finale of this new level that i have just started... it is way ahead in future...

and thats it... this summer i even got my frist cell phone!! yeahh.. that, btw, was the besttt part...
then last week i WENT TO THE GREAT ''HARD ROCK CAFE'' BABYYyyy!! its like the bestttttttt place for music freaks... so cool...harshita and me had gone.. it just recently opened up in delhi.. or else it is very famous all over the world...

my belly dancing is going greattt... i was suppose to have a show, but then i most probably will be having it on the 17th... and anyway, the GREAT NEWS WAS THAT I GOT PROMOTED ON TO THE NEXTTTTTTT LEVEL...I WAS SOOOoo happy! :D JUST LEARNT CHOREOGRAPHY ON THIS SONG FROM THE BOLLLYWOOD MOVIE *DELHI 6* ''genda fool''.. crazie, rite! :P

apart, there wasnt anything special that i'm missing on to or i dont think there is anything else that extra ordinary that i would like to put it down here...
i had the same old not so boring and exciting life :-P ... over the time, saloni and me became like besties... sholay recently turned 16... i'm soooooooooooo excited for mine... :)

ps. this reminds me, i still have to buy a gift for my girlfriend, hehe, sherlyn, that is! (suggestions are welcomed)

pps: today the 7th of july, is my dear sister's boyfriend's Sayantan's BIRTHDAY!!! so HAPPY BIRTHDAYYyyyyyyyyyyyy to him!! :D

I am not going to miss you

not any more

only those moments, 

the moments spent before...

not that time of day

when it was light

not that time of day

 when it was night

just a little of what

when you were mine!

sO far...

TEN DAYS of the THIRD and the last month of my summer have passed by... and i dont feel any change in me... ha!!

my result came... yeahieeeeeeeeee, i'm a senior NOW! I'M IN FREAKING CLASS 11!!! feels like a dream come true... on the whole i scored 89%... scoring highest in social, that was 96 (well, all my time -table and the organising that i had done for social had to pay!! social ONLY OF CLASS 10 was my favourite and i had prepared damn well for it... even though i expected a 100... 96 aint bad at all... *ka-ching*) then scoring 94 in mathematics, so NOT SATISFYING!! hahaha! they are good marks, no doubt BUT NO GOOD for the one who did her paper for scoring anything above 95, easily!! i was shocked but then, it was the first time ever that i had scored in 90's, so the happiness outweighted my mother's frown... ta-da... everyone asked me ''so, your mum happy?"... she wasnt satisfied... well, she was the only one familiar with my hardwork... she always told me that all she wanted was that my hardwork should pay, i guess that much of hardwork wasnt enough! anyway, she got over it.. the scene at home was horrifying when i'd check my result... nothing happened according the way i wanted. hahahahahaha!

moving on, yesterday daddy and me had gone to the school, checked out the list... and the excitement was sooooooooo much... even though i knew i would get my subject, but everything had its own charm... the happiness was out of the world... the feeling only comes once in lifetime, i'm veryyyyyyyyyy excited to go school on the 1st July, see my new classmates... part of life, shuffling will happen due to the choice of subjects... i'm not sure who all are going to be my new class mates except for Harshita, Vikalpa and Aakii, but i'm sure my friends which i made over two years, in class 9 and 10, are all taking science... :( :( I'll miss Hany, Tapesh, Jhil-Mil, Joshi, Vikram, Yaman... the Prashants who we used to mock soooooooo much!!! I have to work hard in class 11, i have to get a batch NMW!!!!!!!!!! yeahhh!!

And then guess what, ORANGE IS MY NEW FAV. COLOUR!! hahahahaha! The T20 world cup has started and this new team of Netherlands have orange uniform... so hawwwtttt!! hahahaha!

mY yam-dee (sakshi's bestie :D ) graduated from NIFT and now she's officially a FASHION DESIGNER<>

sholay came back a long time back, we hang out these days in the evenings having funnnnn!!! she's a sweetheart!! <3

and...3 days after my result came out, my tutions started!!! baaahhh... tutions for mathematics... it is in amar colony, the same place from where sakshi used to take tutions, hahaha, 7YEARS BACKK!!!!!!! so far, so good. nothing that difficult...

today, the 9th, i HAVE 3 classes back to back in the evening... yeah this sucks... 1st mathematics 530-630, then accounts 630-730 and finally GUITAR!! :D:D:D 730-830...hahahaha!! now that sounds like *summer*... something is happening and it better do!!! :P :P

*aNnOy€d*

I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm angry at myself, very very very veryyyyyyyy mad at me!! 

Somehow whatever i wanted to do this summer i SO WASNT ABLE TO! and this sucks... i was soo freaking excited for these holidays and now that they have gone, rather i have wasted them, i feel terrible... i had a list of tonnsss of stuff to do but i have no idea why aint am doing NOTHING! 

Yes, i'm learning belly-dancing, what i really wanted but that wasnt the ONLY thing on my freaking list!

i'm surprised at myself, for how LAZY i could be????????? howmuch? if i cant do my work how will i EVER BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING FOR ANYBODY!!

THIS SOO SUCKS!

I'M LAZYING TO EVEN WRITE MY BLOG, MY CHEER, TO HELP MAA IN HOUSE, NOT EXERCISING, TO LEARN CEDAR-I'M SO IRREGULAR, THAT THE PROGRESS IS ALMOST NIL!!!! :( :( :(

AND WHATEVER I PLANN TO DO, CERTAINLY DOESNT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALERT!!! * Class X Exam Results 2009 - To Be Announced on 29th May 2009 *

i had a good day... owkiesh, short aerobics class... i even woke up groggy and was thankful that today the class was short...

saloni and me had fun, laughing and talking... the rest of the day i'd spend in doing a lilttle bit of house chore, ironing clothes, else i actually slept the whole day...

short-short naps in between.. and that is how i'd spend my afternoon. in the evening as i was getting ready to go out, saloni was on her way to come at my place, for the zillionth time in the day sakshi checked the CBSE website and it read ' Class X Exam Results 2009 - To Be Announced on 29^th May 2009  

i called up saloni to tell the news... i tried calling my other gang of girls but niether of them picked up the phone, darn... and after that, i slipped... i mean i didnt slip onto the floor or something, i'd slip with my feelings! i became nervous... excited... scared... right now i'm on the verges of panicking... I HAVE BECOME A NERVOUS WRECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!freak man... i cant handle the anxiety anymore... yes, at one point i think that result should be out, already and on the other hand at the thought ''what'' will be the result, i really dont want to see it... i'm happy like this...

but this result is the ultimatum.. everything will be over after this.. i will truly be in 11th. freak, 11th means like less than 2 years left for SCHOOL!! i will start crying now only. i know i'm thinking in tooo much ahead in future however if time will fly like this, i can see my self panicking for my 12th result already! and it sucks! . ...maaa!!! help me!!! :(

i really cant believe that 10 will be over soon.. i mean always wanted it to be over soon.. but i will miss it... yeah, i'm one jumbled up piece!!!!

my parents have gone to the hospital. a co-worker of daddy, whose been working with him for more than 25years is hospitalised and he is in a veryy veryy crtical condition. i'm scared for him too.. he's family, you see... he's a veryy great man... god bless him... 

and then the weather's becoming good outside, windy and probably it will rain. now this is a good premonition for it also rained both the times on sakshi's 10th as well as 12th result. it wasnt raining, it was a STORM!! both the times, i'm talking about,.. freak.

and then at the camp my fav, favvv and my luck charm bracelet broke!! at the last day of camp which is nott a good omen! i mean i dont know.. on a brighter side i think to have lost a great thing porbably may return in the form of GOOD RESULT!! you never know!

i have decided the scene at my home, first i will check the result myself, alone and once i'm satisfied (nmw the result is,i  have to be),  i will let mum, dad, sisi and everyone else to see... past week there have been so many calls, ''arey!! how was her result... ohh not out, yet! , so when is it then... ohh...ohh''... they are asking for my result as though its on their behalf i have given boards and if god forbid i dont get good one, they are gonna eat me up... *no hard feelings*

for i'm missing my dadu(grandpa) now... just as i prayed and wanted him to sit beside me whenever i gave the board paper, i want him to be there with me for the ultimate show as well... i know he will be there... he is one luck charm that no one can take away from me!

ps. wishing all the best to, 

aakii

harshii

gaurs

deeksh

shefu

viku

samster

jhil-mil

hany

jai

ayush

nikhel

eku

joshi

harsh

both the prashant

and all the tafsians and 10ies

anupam

mayank

diya

shardooli

saloni

prerna

neha

nimish

archit

all pinnacle students

and in the end, me! :)

Day VI

suman ma'am had this weird way of waking us up... rather all 3 of them did.. they would go ''gooOood mOrning... goOoOd morning... gOOD morning... wake up, wake up.. fats, fast fast... oye, good morning... we have to leave soon... get up... pack up your tents... LNT (leave no trace) incharge, where is it?... good morning... " and they would not stop... they would go on and on anddd on... i dont know what fun they saw in irritating us... and waking us up at like 6... that sucks... this was for the first time that for 8 days in a strecth i woke up soo freaking early... i would get up late for school also, 6 is freaking early...

half groggily i woke up... harshita, shardooli and i went into the wilderness, *tada*..we did the unpacking...i had a lil problem packing the sleeping bag, but i managed it anyway...had to.. lol... ;) 

once i as done with packing all the stuff back, including the biscuit packets and cake packets and also few of baked beans tin, when everyone was soo into themseleves, doing this and that, i have no idea, from where i  had this fit.. fit of home-sickness... trust me it sucked...i hate it. for when i wanted to be outta my home, and i WAS<>

once their packing was done, todoos starting moving, leaving harshita, rachit, mayank, anupam and me at the end...we found that two spoons, the stoves, cooking oil, all the garbage and what not was left behind... it really made me mad at those guys... i mean no repect for all the stuff they are leaving and we had to carry the remaining stuff... errr!!

that day, our trek was of 8km! 8 KILOMETRES OF UPHILL... FREAKING STEEEEPPPP UPHILL!!!!! AND I EVEN LOST MY WATER BOTTLE!! :(( AND THERE WAS NO WATER POINT ON THE WAY... :((( 

the beginning of it was hard, the steepest ever... i found mayank in the midway of it, resting.. he gave me the reason to rest as well... once the peeps behing us caught up, we started moving...the trek following that was horrible... we were again in the middle of jungle...we found a burnt tree lying on the ground and we could detect the smell, as though the fire was recently extinguished...and it was due to that fire we saw the glowing the previous night.. limits!!

at our first resting point, we stayed at that place for like more than 30 minutes... it became hotter and hotter plus, the way was, wayyyy uphilll... later on it got damnn steep and narrow!! very narrow...

mayank, poor he, he had a very tough time uphill.. he was carrying about 80-90kgs that included his own weight and the tent as well... we all cheered for him... gave him a round of applause and did all that, that could encourage him to move on... even though he was in imense pain and was exhausted beyond limit, he didnt stop...

it is very very veryyy tough job, for it is beyond words to explain that how the trekking was... i cant put it in words to describe how i felt... experience, is the word for that...

once we reached a good height... the view was a distraction. 

as i marched on the narrow path, walking uphill, a mountain, there were many mountain peaks on my right, cold breesze blowing on my face... it was beautiful... pretty and totally out of the world.. well it got better... not the view my condition, and not exactlt better, worse, lol... i was much beyonddd the word ''exhausted''... i was on the verges of collapsing... suman ma'am, harhsita, arshya, anupam all ahead.. shardooli and mithali behind me and i'm in the middle of a mountain on a green field i can see the resting point.. i was sooo freaked out... i had no power, no strength and no courage to move, i became that worse...

we reached... we did...

it felt like we were on the ''flat''top of a mountain, named Rangali Top... i againg smashed my bag on the ground and laid down.. as i tried to get back to my senses, i found this place was bodered by a wall of stones... huge area... there were two huts in the area... belonged to the whites in time pre-independence time. there was a valley of white flowers, which looked amazing... behind the huts were many mountains... beyond the white flower valley, was tree where green, red colth were hanged and there was also a potrait og God and Godess kept.Further,was a gate sort, beyond which was a jungle that was actually the girl loo area.. lol... 

there, we all sat in the shdae area of a hut... we were sooo darn hungary... starving, as though we havent tasted food for ages!!! i opened up 1 biscuit pakcet out of three... that made me remain with 2 biscuit packets and one of chocolate cake ... *this was the secret* 

so i said, we were sooo hungry that, we started eating sugar... we also came to know on our back, those 5 guys who had already reached and diya had EATEN THE FRINKING CHOCOLATE POWDER!! THAT WAS A DAMN 500gm TIN!!! ghosh! and they feven finished another halaal tin!! *annoying* while sitting and talking kartikay and bharat came up with this accapella thing for singing the sixer song and make anupam dance on it... lol...

now, we were deciding to open the secong last tin of halaal or not since majority of us didnt have and few of us were yet to reach... however we did open up.. and out of 17 halaals, i ONLY GOT ONE!!! meann people... 

the remaining troop reached like, an hour later than we did, which included rishika, mayank, naveen sir, kuber sir, rachit and sanya! these guys had a tribal make up on them.. leaves on their head... the black charcoal from tree massaged on to their face! ha... these guys reached, we were relieved! :)

after another 20 minutes the other, ''killer rafters'' group arrived! it was a great reunion, for many of us! that evening i had my fits on.. i kept on laughing, going here and there... i messed a lil bit of mattar paneer that day for lunch, but mayank the great saviour, didnt make it a big deal and saved the day! that day while rohan, diya, shardooli, harshita, anupam, ashray, rohan and me were relaxing, we found out that a big game of truth and dare was on, on the other side... the highlight of the game ''shivani was asked to lip kiss diksha and she did it...'' i dont think i really should say anything, for it was their wish to do so, however, i think these guys are least bother about their dignity or its probably my NOT showing open-mindedness for i aint from that ''class'' of school... i believe maturity comes with time and  for these guys, its much before ''time''!! :) who cares, anyway!

that evening i went to the water point, supposedly 200 metres downhill.. a tap sort from which water came as though it was forced to take a route via that tap.. it was freaking slow.. i had gone with ashray, rohan, rhea and ranya later joined by aditya and some other guy! since we had to go downhill, i even slipped once... i swear, those pine needles are worse than a peel of banana!! :P

that evening after a bashing from our instructors we finally did, pitch our tents.. we had amazing matar paneer and rice in lunch, courtsey : Mayank! :) 

for dinner, we had daal and rice, courtsey : bharat and kuber sir! :) also naveen sir... that night was much cooler... and once in our pullovers, there was a huge debate ove whose going to sleep outside... mean... guys slept outside and we girls in tent... before that, we had our ritual of listening to ghost stories narrated by naveen sir... 

so that very area also had its story... it was believed that every night you could hear howling of a girl when ever breeze flowed and if you go beyond the perimeter of the area, that is the wall, if werent allowed to go after dark for the ghost of that girl might attack... and why? well that is part of the ghost story which i didnt listen to.. again, i was lying on the ground with many of my friends around me, and me with the fingers in my ears, all set to hear nothing but probably my own voice and close my eyes...hahahaha!!!

the horror tale was probably really scary and hence there was againg a big quarrel of who will sleep in the middle... trust me, i'm clever at this... i told them i'll sleep in the corner the next day... and what not...

ulitmately my most tiring day of the trip ended... 

*******

yesterday, i think was the best tuesday, till now...apart from waking up early in the morning, aerobics was fun... even though all the way saloni and me talkied about nothing but FOOD!! god gracious!! here we're trying to eat less, very difficult i must say!! anyway, so sadhika came at my place... and luckily, fortunately, sadhu and saloni clicked together, for it is always a  lil difficult mixing up your friends from two different groups!!

we went to Lajpat in late afternoon... there at McD, i had chiken nuggets! and they were delicious! first time i had was in London and now they are in india baby... awesome! lol

and then we'd shop a lil bit... i bought this amazing neck piece, a lil long but really hawtt! *ka-ching* 

via Auto, we went to Amar colony. The amar colony ccd sucks... they dont serve you... we sat there for like 15 minutes... only 3 table were filled.. the waiter served and heard to other 2 and not us... we enjoyed the free ac, did beat the heat for a while and then walked off... we had a paneer roll... and thats it... we came home around 5... tired.. had water sat.. clciked more pictures... happy day,good day...in the eve i did chat with a long lost friend of mine.. practically, i'd hear from him after a very long time.. 

in the morning i felt like cursing saloni, because of her i ended up in this aerobics thingie and now, it feels really annoying to get up soo early ... however this assures me a good sleep at night... now i have started sleeping early baby... anyway, how does it make a difference... and now at home, i watched a movie, ''down to you'' cute, rom-com movie... ate cherries and melon... so apart from watching tv and sitting online i practically did nothing...and i wanted to to isolate... isolate from everything i did... but my *shitty* laptop suppose to be my saviour for now.. i have no idea how i did ever survive with out it...i still do want to go away from everything... just as my sister says, ''i'm addicted''..

sherlyn's result came in Panchkula region... she got 77%

my congratulations to Naomi, she did realyy well.. and also to Shalomi!!

... and now i'm freaking scared for my result... earlier i was very chilled out, no excitement nothing, and now i'm scared... i have no idea how will it come out to be and then, when i think about it..it gets worse... cbse people are becoming like those reality tv show people who will raise your heat beat to the limit , make us sooo restless and then once they are satisfied to see the anxeity in us, they'll announce it...!! 

gracious!!!

My First Crush

I loved you because i thought

you were the cutest person

I loved you because i thought

you never were into a relation

I loved you because, i found

you in every motion

I loved you because i thought

as compared to you there was no human

I loved you because, i loved

the ocean i was in...

I loved you because, there was

always a reason to swing

i danced in rain because, i thought

that was a lover sign.

I loved you because, i thought

you were simple and fine

i hate you now, because you

never considered me a close friend

i hate you now because, you were

just another use n throw trend

yet, i still love you because evey chat

saved and read made me cheer

and all old things made me repicture

the last day we spent together

and as always remember you...

you, my first crush! 

discovered it in an old diary...wrote this one on 3 december 2007... 

I'm mad at myself...

''am i that unwanted... so ugly, hideous, the odd one out, Princess of myself...

whatever i maybe, whatever maybe its reason... i dont wanna know, i dont care, cuz here i repeat myself again , i'm FREAKING tired of everything CHANGING--> improving myself agn and agn... c'mon, now, someone has to accept the way i'm.. god bless everyone!.. i loev you,

*sign* "

Day V

i woke up early that day as compared to past 4 days... not only me, but everybody... because that morning we were leaving for trekking, we had to pack our stuff into the rucksack that were alloted to us and shift our main luggage to another tent... that day, behind us, the next batch was to come, we had to empty our tents for them... ta-da

so this morning, unlike other dawns, we were more energetic, running here and there... once we were done packing, we took our rucksacks, to the baddi court, lol, the lawn made badminton court, there, a mat was laid down which had all the food items that we were suppose to carry... 

i had, about 5 packets of  tiger(glucose) biscuits, the britannia cake packets and tins of baked sausages... and i was carrying my own water bottle... on the whole, amongst 18 todoos, mine was the lightest rucksack, hahahahahaha...however very heavy for me... mayank had the heaviest rucksack, ever! :-P

before leaving we had 2 glasses of water, CC took a picture of the Toddoos! yeah!!! :)

as we trekked upto the road, i could feel the weight if rucksack killing... and all i could say to myself was ''babe, its just the beginning..." 

we were transported from the camp site to the Khooni Ghat, via the cattle truck... Khooni Ghat was our starting point... 

as we began our trekking, Navven sir told us to tighten the band around our waist, he tightened the grip at my shoulders so that the weight is well distributed... however, the beginning suckedd, BIG TIME!!! it was steep... after every 5minutes i would stop... i would be outta breath... i was glad that kuber sir was walking with me... after 15 minutes the way became hell steep and narrow... awful... on the way, i became so freaking tired, i simply threw my rucksack down.. not down the hill but on the ground... i wanted to give right there and then... from then only, harshita wasnt trekking with me... she was way ahead... about 30 minutes later our first water point came... river, that is... we refilled our bottle, i splashed the chilling water on my face... e all were bathing in sweat... hun, it became even worse...

we were enlightened to know that to reach the Gujjar Hut, the first destination for pitching the tent, we had to cross 5 more river crossings, that is 5 another water points.. for the whole trekking of 3 days we were also handed a survival kit. which contained almonds, raisins, rasna sachets and eclairs... 

at our 3rd resting point, near a river only, ishan made rasna in his water bottle... poor guy didnt read the instructions which read ''add sugar''... we tried it, and it was the most horrible thing i have ever had... then started the thing for taking rasna shots... one by one, we started opening up rasna sachets, took the orange powder in our palms and took it in... ha!! it was freaking sour... and ruined the taste in my mouth... 

after that resting point, the trekking became WORSE!!!!!!!!!!! it was horrible... our instructors left us... that was rude.. the way was not that steep, however very confusing, trees all over the place, pine needles on the floor... the pine needles were the main reason that made the trekking very hard for they are so slippery, that once you fall, they poke in your ass and that hurtsss!!! hahaha... i didnt fall!! lucky me! :))

at one point we were soo lost that harshita had to take out her whistle to confirm the way... on one of the river crossings the stone was soo slippery i fell bad... :( 

somehow, just SOMEHOW, stuggling. with dry throats we reached the place... and that place was nice... we reached there at like 12ish... owkay we included harshita, richita, mayank, anupam,me... and few more!! else, many of them had reached before us!! we reached, slammed the rucksack on the floor and simply fell on the ground... never been so desperate to rest... our instructors had already pitched their tents... 

we found the water point was few metres away... between the rocks, there was a lil water fall, from where we collected the water... the place was flat land, only a lilttle of where we had pitched our tents was flat, or else, there was uphill way on one side, water point and a lil of jungle on the other side and else, there was only baren land full of naked trees on the other direction which belonged to girls to do their job and the jungle near the water point area was for the guys to do their job...

before we laid our tents, we laid all the food we were carrying on a mat... we had our packed lunch... and then, we finally did laid pur tents... and then, in the mid of afternoon, everone was lying outside, bored, some talking, some into themselves, i was watching harshita and ashray talking joined by rohan, anupam and i would speak in between... 

someone came up with this idea of playing truth and dare... that day i saw the ''horny'' and ''vulgar'' version of truth and dare, which made me back off from the game, however enjoy the show... 

1st was anupam... he got the dare to do ''a sixer dance''...what guts, he did...

2nd was harshita... kartikay was suppose to give her a dare... shivani gave her one... shivani asked her to give a lap dance... and then she added, ''lap dance to a girl"... harshi gave her look and was like, ''kartikay is the one to give dare...''. he asked her to do 5 pull-ups!! hrahsita, did them, mangaed to do them, somehow... and the reaction what kartikay gave... ''those were not pullups... you were making sex postions..."

cheap!!

and following that... Bharat got a dare to Hump a tree!! HUMP A TREE!!!! that sucks!!

and then there were few kissing dares... luckily, kissing on the cheeks.... anupam late on got the dare to give a BLOW JOB TO HIS MIDDLE FINGER!!!!!!!!!!! goddd... anupam, i swear, you have got guts, dude... you have the courage AND good sportamanship spirit... lol!! :-P

the ultimate show was when, Shivani (she's just in NINTH!!!!!!!!) got the dare to do a pole cum tree dance... we thought that she wont do... but she's a pro, mann... a complete PRO!!! she did the pole dancing, shaking and moving her ass, her and there, i dunno about the girls, the guys had the ulimate and a better show than they must have seen in the movies... ha!!!

after the truth and dare, round, these guys were deciding what to play... either ''7 minutes of heaven'' (guess on your own, what is this!!) OR ''spin the bottle" ... 

once it was 4ish, the cooking business started... even though i had volunteered for cooking, shivani was like ''i'll cook the macroni... and its gonna be amazing... i swear, that it'll be the best macroni you have ever eaten in your life..." the result was completely opposite of what she claimed... sad... 

she started chopping the onions, while bharat cooked the soup... soup was an evening luxury... 

before all this, we found out, that miss.shivani with few of her gang peeps, finished namkeen packet and biscuit packet... so i opened up the britannia cake packet... so it was then the fight for food sparked...

prbably it was there only the first tin of halaal was finished... rather stolen and then eaten by the guys... halaal chorrr!!! :P:P

the macroni was a disaster and in my words, only 0.1% edible.. behind the macroni packets, the instructions are given... over smart, i-know-everything lady, shivani added 3packets of tomato puree (requires only 1), she finished one cheese spread out of two and 1 myonise bottle out of two, as well...our 50% of food was gone... rather wasted... ishaan and shivani had a huge fight.. after the macroni experience everyone somehow started disliking shivani... i thought she was a desperate soul... sad... :-P

before it got dark, we got the water, many of them did their jobs, macroni makes you shit more... for a moment the scene was, everyone searching for toilet paper... hahaha!!

torches were out... and then the series of ghost started... and they were scary... horrifying.. so in the second one... naveen sir started ''can you see the wood logs lying there... there, lived..." watever after that, i had my fingers on my ears and i had my head on harshita, i took a 7 mins nap... i didnt hear anymore if that horror tale... for naveen sir had sacred us enough... we all were making noise and naveen sir was like noises and songs attract ghosts and then suddenly at the horizon of the other mountain a light started glowing... 

since i didnt hear to that story... we 5, diya, shardooli, mithali, harshita and me slept in one tent... it was pretty warm inside.even though i didnt hea to naveen sir, the darkness got me, i didnt sleep in the corner..i had mithali on one side and harshita on the other, diya slept next to harshita and shardooli the brave one was next to mithali.. i was tired, so that helped me fall asleep easily on top of that, i was lucky, for i didnt hear that ghost story...

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sunday and mondayy... good dayss... gone by... lol... 

on sunday, i woke up to my mum's voice, ''arushi, get up, already... dad's unpacking stuff..'' ha... dad bought like 5-6tees for sakshi and me,ofcourse on share and care... a guitar giude, which was a big surprise... and also 2 pairs of lowers, including a pair of Levi denims...

the day went nice, and boring... lazying around that is!! in the evening saloni and me went outside in the colony... we did our gossip...

yesterday, the aerobic was fun... i'd lazy around as usual, nothing special, chatting for hours...my mood wasnt that good. when i asked, i was given ''yes'' as a reply for ''do i sound depressed?'' and thus, i decided to retreat to isloation no more checking FB or orkut, i just wanna be alone, however i'll have myself enjoy the luxury of blogging and messenger! :)... saloni and me somehow have become good friends now, that again we'd spend the evening together!! :))

i miss you as well...

sakshi my dear sisi wrote a blog post dedicated to our beloved (late) cousin Mansi dee, which made me weep... 

sakshi and dee were like twins...always together, same school, same class... and i was excluded from all the sisterly fun...so ofcourse, sisi had soo much to weep on and here i cant think of anything that included dee and me... however, she's the best sis i have ever had, even better than sakshi... i remember only this much that she wanted to be a doctor and i would always say that i would be your nurse... and she had, like, trillion of stuff toys that i'd adore a lot.. she even wrote diaries, my another source of inspiration to write, she taught me how to use the computer, with her i'd spent less, but, very precious years of life... she's always been happy go lucky person and that's how i remember her...dee had dark complexion, so her face with big colgate smile... beautiful long hair... what not...

since the day she's gone,she's left the family, i somehow started hating her... because she left me alone...i loved her soo bad... and i was suppose to be her nurse and she a doctor... because of her i was inspired to be a doctor... i even started liking silvy, her cat... i didnt like that she became mean for a moment and ended everything she had not realising that it made an immortal hole in our family which can never be filled, no matter what!!! (yeah, i'm being selfish here)

i was even jealous of sakshi for she got to be with dee more than i did... i so enjoyed being at her place, playing with her, especially tickling her... but i remember, that i really loved her,  we had fun at her place... i'm sorry, i dont miss you that much, anymore, probably because there's not much of what i can think and miss that...i have very very veryyy vague memory of dee and me together... yes, these 5 years did pass in a blink of an eye... 

miss you.

Day IV

so i woke up to find that the weather had settled down, it was cold though...

in the choti hazari that morning we were asked to wear shoes and were taken to a field about 700-800 metres away... trekking between the wilderness... there we played again games based on co-ordination and team work... since,the next day we were to leave for hiking-trekking we were taught how to pitch a tent...it was 'A' type of tent, its various parts- pegs, ridge pole, etc

that day was the last day of rafting... we all excited... today our rafting stretch was of 10km... our cattle trucks took us took a farther point. that only, a new instructor was assigned to only our group.. he was an american, born and brought up in California, name- Louise. he told us about, his dream to visit Chile and now he planned to go back home for sometime... he even gave a brief about his travelling experience... on that day's rafting expedition we went on grade3 rapids, which were fun... 

on our way back from Aquaterra rafting camp side, the truck in which the killer rafter group was going had tire-punctured... hahaha... so in the mini cow truck in which we todoos were going, the other 18 were stuffed...it was exhausting... the way wasnt that smooth, so many of us ended up having tiny injuries...

that afternoon we didnt go anywhere for any sort of minor activity, i took a head wash. there was apipe near the loo and bathing tents from which water flowed 24*7, so thanks to that we all would take a head wash... the whole place would turn into a fish market.. some shouting '' can you please help, me?", some ''oye, pass me the shampoo!!''

after having squash and lunch we went to the beach... it's like a pilgrimage for us... we laughed and talked and clicked pictures... after spending like 2hrs... everyone was asked to gather in the common place.

there on the notice board, a map was made which was actually a brief about the trekking we were going to embark in the next three days. the whole journey was of 24km. 1st day we had to trek UP HILL 4 km, 2nd day 8km to our main destination, final destination, lol, Rangali Top 7,5oo metres above sea level. on the 3rd day, simply trek DOWN HILL 12 km... 

following that we were given a list of food items and the maximum number we were allowed to carry... the camp was alloting us with a rucksack, a raincoat, sleeping bag, a bowl and a spoon... the instructors were going for the heck of it... we only had to carry the utensils, our clothes, the food as well as the tent... so we had to think judicially of how many tents we require and ofcourse how much food... there was a big, big, bigg debate over food...finally, we were carrying biscuits, cheese spread, bread, sausages aka halaal, matar paneer -ready to make packets, tomato puree, onions, britannia chocolate cakes,rice, pulses, utensils, stoves, garbage bag and much-much more... 

that evening the solo time didnt feel like one... for we had spent most of the day there only, so no body wanted to sit by themselves... everyone talking and laughing... kuber sir scolded me and literally ordered me to go and sit somewhere faarrrrrrrrr... so i went and sat next to water on the rock... i had my head in my lap... it was soo soothing, peaceful that i even fell asleep for 5-6 minutes... that eve i realised it was the 15th, my Dadu's birthday (Grandfather's), i'd miss him... but didnt get too carried away, i had no intentions on getting too emotional.

that night we again had another session of lame horror story... 

later on, one guy, who seemed like an instructor to us came upto us and sat... it was harshita, anupam, mayank and me at that time! he was barefoot had a maala in his neck... he had that complete priest look... on asking him he in his low peaceful voice, was like, '' i'm a wanderer... i was just passing by the place and they (the campus people) offered me shelter , food and water... so i'm here tonight...'' i dunno about others but he freaked me out... then he told us that he even read faces... when i asked him to read mine...

priest: with whom do you stay the most, your mother or father?

me:equally both

priest: umm... you're... you're slow in your actions... you do your work very steadily however your mind's very fast... you're actions are like your mother however your thinking is just like your father's....

me: *i had the shocking look on my face... you know where your mouth's open and you're surprised...* okay

I seriously couldn't believe him... his each word was true... seriously... oohh god... later on we came to know that he was one of the instructors there however he reads people faces and palms...

that night at born fire, this guy Bharat, he played the guitar and sang beautiful songs... that made my sleep good as i drowned into the peaceful night...

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today, woke up at 6.30 with saloni's call and ta-da did go for aerobics... yeah, it's owkay, nothing of that great sort... just going for i would have an early starting to my day by working out a lil and not by lazying around... plus, i wanna lose my belly fat, hehe! :P

following that, i started with my second month of belly dance class... and as i have always said, i never seem to get enough of it, it always makes me impatient to learn more... the only thing that makes me feel, ''yeah, i'm following my dream'', which is completely outrageous! :))

the whole day i'd lazy around.. at night, i had pizza.. was on date with da'ads, my grandmaa... i sat with her, we had pizza and coke and i told her about the camp... yeah fun... actually sis and maa had gone for a wedding reception and someone had to be with da'ads so i stayed back... 

after midnight, dad came back home... i was soo relieved to see him, somehow... i love my daddy... lol... so we all sat together, i was veryy sleepy, so i heard all the story of dad's journey with my eyes closed and already half asleep... but i know most of it... he had a great time... bua was very very veryyy surprised to seem him, ta-da mission accomplished... and what else do you need...

Ps. just a random question, how will you know that the other person is falling for you? (dont be surprised by my question, please...) ;)

Day III

now that i had sneaked into the tent no.11, i had to be concious that before any instructor opens up the tent to wake us up the next morning he/she should'nt catch me red handed... but you know, i had an amazing luck... amazing luck probably limited to that day only... somehow i woke up on my own to find that it was bright outside... i myself went outside... brushed my teeth. so when i was walking back from the loo area i found it was then the instructors started waking up everyone... phew!!! 

that morning, we were asked to wear shoes and come for the choti hazari... we went to this lawn area where there was bon fire the previous night... as i said the instructors over there were in love with shapes, we were asked to make a circle... we did some warm up excersices... that morning i found that i'm badly struck with cold and cough... anyway, after that we had these relay games, todoos vs. the rafters! it as like a player from each team had to run to a point 50metres away, inflate a balloon and then burst it with hus/her ass. once done, run back to your team and tag the next person... the second game was also relay where you had to pair up with a person from your team only, inflate a balloon, the pair had to balance the balloon between their back and reach the point same as before and then run back to your team and tag the next pair... hahaha! both the times the todoos won, you see, we are good at todo-fying stones and balloons... (lame joke ;) )

further we changed into our shorts and tees and today was the second day for Rafting... we reached the Aquaterra site pretty early so our guides made us play few games... they were fun... for rafting this time the guide didnt do the paddling, everything was dependent on us! and this time i sat on the front area, last time i was in the middle... as usual we stopped at a place took take a dip into the river, rather we stopped twice to swim in the water... plus this time the speed of water was faster and also the level of water had also increased for it was hotter and hence much of the glacier must have melted... 

back at the camp, we had squash, which i truly loved... we changed into our dry clothes... at dinner area where we usually sat, was the main place to mix up with people... thanks to diya and shardooli we got introduced to many other girls.. there was mithali, saniya, yaashna,diksha, upasana, avarna, etc... diya was amongst the prettiest girls over there...she was my height, she was thin, probably zero size had these beautiful smile and eyes... the perfect way to describe is ''doll'',she's from Chicago, US and else laughed silently, lol... shardoli her BFF is a lil healthy she also has an accent like diya, however she's lived in mexico, brussles and belgium.. both from sanskriti school, they were the only ones from class11... apart all these girls were like sooo tall and almost all of them zero size, fair and beautiful and even though they were like younger to me, they looked sooo mature, as though they were in 12 or even older!

that afternoon after having bit of conversations here and there and having lunch, naveen sir shouted''tadooos, guys, come here''.... we were confronted with a challenge for which we were given a map... there were 'X' marked at 3 places which meant that we had to ask the instructor for an activity assigned for that particular destination. kartikey, took charge for the map. he is such an ass, he would boss us around and i never even got to have one look at the map!! whenever i udes to ask him for it, he would so nicely ignore me.. as though i was speaking to a rock!! anyway as we started on the expedetion, we first came across a water point, which was a handpump.. there we all drank water... after covering like 100 metres from there, it was time for our first activity...

naveen sir paired us up with people whom we didnt know at all... harshi was paired up with ashray and i was with shardooli, even though i knew her, since she was my tent mate... eventually, what was the activity?.. one from each pair was blind folded, the one who could see had to lead the other one without touching the blind one... so shardooli was blind folded... the way was pretty tricky, full of rocks, mud puddles, too steep and turns as well... so i would have to instruct shardooli to take 5 steps here and there, jump to your right, left or forward.. most of the times i kept on telling her to keep right, and simply walk straight... next when i was blind folded, it was very difficult for me to understand her... she always asked me to kept left... eventually, i asked her to keep blabbering for i would follow her voice... and ta-da it actually worked!! yeah, fun!! 

our next destination was a mandir... very famous one in the small village of Anori... there no leather stuff was allowed... we were aksed to take off our socks and shoes... futher were divided into teams of 6.. mine included govind, rachit, rishika, sanya and mithali... we were given a paper and a marker and were assigned to collect as many information of the temple as possible in 20 minutes... luckily govind got hang of a person who was a local, lived there only and told us about every possible thing about the temple as well as the neighbourhood... the temple was about 450years old, built by lord Bheem. it's temple of Goddess Sudipta...there was even two large rocks, probably weighing around 100 kgs and it is said that Lord Bheem used to play with them.. many guys were able to pick up those rocks.. it is also said if you pick up that rock and are able to throw it and also make a wish, it tends to come true... there was also a tiny kaali maa ka mandir, near which we were standing, that was our group and listening to that guy who was giving all the info that suddenly a lady, must be in her 40s, starts wild dancing, throwing the prashad all over the place, moving her head which made her hair go here and there just like a witch's... she ran towards us... i got soo freaking scared that i ran... and then came to know she was not running towards us but the temple of kaali maa... a guy, sort of priest came, took hold of her, placed his palm on her temples and chanting something which calmed that old lady... on asking we came to know that it happens everyday but to different people for kaali maa decents herself into one of her true believers...

moving on, the instructors were like they would quiz us on the info that we had collected... we had 4 pages filled with soo much about the place, just like an enclyopedia... we trekked back the same way only that we stopped at a bridge... it was actually shivering.. it was an ancient one.. we crossed that and then there was a wall like pavement... we all sat there..and at that venue we were quized... and ka-ching, our team won... wasnt that obvious, already!! hehehe!

two activites : check, one to go... as we moved on from that place, about 200 metres ahead, it was a grass covered area, where the groups of six were divided into 3... it was mithali rachit and me this time... out of the three one had to be blind folded, one had to be the intrepretor of the signs the third one gave who could not speak to the blind folded one in order to collect the missing pieces of the hoopla... ghosh that was fun... following that we played a game known as ''big fish-small fish''.. while coming back, a goat followed us... followed us till we reached the camp... she was named ''bak-bak''

as soon as we reached the camp, we were pretty tired... however it was the solo time when we reached...so we took our cool book and and i took my fav place near the river... the solo time, was pure bliss... even though i have it at home also but a solo time on beach, is like the icing on cake... ummm.. lol

that evening, after it as almost dark, torches were out... all 36 of us were scttered.. we had soup... talked... sat on the stools, it was anupam, mayank, harshi and me, later joined by shagun... we'd talk about movies, life back home... and how we were not that homesick, now, atleast... hehe... probably after an hour or so, it started drizziling... the weather got worse... biting cold, freezing wind... awful stormm... we were wearing our pullovers already but now, we were holding our tents, so that they dont fly... lol... well another experience in itself... before dinner was served, we all 36 were in the common place sitting. a guy was playing the mini keyboard, few playing the mini congos and another a guitar... later on, the series of ghost stories started. Tara sir, took the initiative... so the 2-3 source of lights we had was switched off and we made a circle around him... the ghost story apparantly wasnt that scary... see, if a person like me didnt get scare, so you can imagine that at the end of it, the ghost story was not even a bit horror, rather lame... 

i was so tired that i had no strenght to even open my eyes that night thus i had sound sleep.. shagun was a great help that night, for she was aware of my fear so she gave me her torch before she slept... the storm continued for a while at night... but the funniest part was, in the middle of nowhere, bak-bak started with her  ''mei-mei-mei'' at night... and started pulling shardooli's blanket.. lol... it was soo funnyy.... i couldnt stop laughing... 

and then, i eventually felt groggy and laughing-laughing, i went back to sleep...

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past 3 days, i'm feeling pretty awkward...probably now that i'm back home, i'm mountain-sick... everyone said that '' we didnt realise how just time flew''... but somehow i disagreed with them... i felt each and everyday... i felt each moment i'd spent there, absorb it in me so hard, that it might because of that now, i feel weird being back home...but good at the same time as well :)

today in the morning i had gone for aerobics with saloni and landed up spending the whole day with her... it was soo much of fun... in the afternoon weather became so awesome for it drizzeled. so saloni called me up and was like ''lets go somewhere...'' we met again.. and then, first we went to meet, Pradeep sir, my tution sir... he's preparing for CA now, so he's completely turned his look to that of devdas... long hair, seemes like he havent shaved for like a month and that look on his 6 feet frame made sir look even taller... i felt totally, completely nostalgic when i went to the tution centre.. i was missing sitting in the class, sleeping-yawning, when sir taught boring subjects and what not, well, i'll write another post on my tution..

tomorow starts my 2nd month if belly dancing. 

i have a guitar class on 25th and i havent practiced at all, will do that probably tomorrow!!

else, my dad called to ask me what i wanted from US... apparantly i sent bua a big email, flaterring her and all and in the end asked her to tell dad to get me the most beautiful diary in the earth for my *svt16*